Sexy pics for you!

Good morning dear lovlies! Have you enjoyed the pics of my sexy men I posted just for you??? Aren't they delicious???? Feel free to leave me your comments!! And NO you cannot have their phone numbers!!!!

I still don't know when we will get to hook up though unfortunately. My hubby and I are still riding the fucking rollercoaster of his infidelities, and although things are going well, it is still too tenous to add other guys sadly. I do miss my hotties, but they have to be an addition to my life, not a substitute for my hubby. And right now we have to get solid before we go back to swinging again.

We do both miss it. It's just harder now. I'd be ok if he never wanted to be with another female, but how fair is that?? It's not, but hey, I didn't ask to be cheated on so that wasn't fair to ME. I allowed him to have HER but he lied and cheated on me behind my back about her so HE IS THE ONE THAT FUCKED IT ALL UP. 

I am working on me. We are talking more, counseling has been helping. I am trying to find my way. The cognitive dissonance of infidelity does SO much damage, if I can implore you all to be HONEST in every way with the significant other in your life. This whole notion of "trying to protect" them by withholding the truth only hurts worse when the truth finally comes out, and believe me, IT WILL COME OUT. It took 16 years for the truth of his first affair to come out, and it hurts worse and makes it that much harder to recover from. I look at him and wonder, "who the fuck is this person I've been married to all these years??" He's had this secret double life I had NO FUCKING IDEA about. Trying to rebuild trust is THAT much harder by his cowardice in not coming forward. 

If you've cheated on your significant other, I beg you to come clean RIGHT THIS VERY MINUTE. They deserve to know. They deserve to be able to make their own choices and not have you manipulate them to stay with you. That is honestly the hardest part--I hate my husband for not giving me the opportunity to decide  FOR MYSELF if I wanted to stay with a cheater. He manipulated me into staying for 16 years by withholding the truth from me. How can I ever forgive him for that?? And, in addition, I gave up my friends, my family, my life, my kids' friends and life, to move clear across the country for him. Yes, it's been a good move, but that is because THAT IS WHO I AM. I MAKE THE BEST OF IT. I have moved with him over 8 times during our marriage, and if I'd known he'd cheated on me maybe I'd have divorced him 16 years ago. Or three, after the second affair. HE CHEATED ME OUT OF MAKING CHOICES.

So I implore you to remember this quote from survivinginfidelity.com---"The truth hurts, but lies hurt more."

Enjoy you life by living authentically.

Go and be happy my sexy readers.

No sex=no fun=who cares???

Hey everyone, sorry to be such a debbie-downer these days. Life sucks. My life sucks right now. It's been three months I've been in hell now and it doesn't look like I'll be out of it anytime soon. Hubby and I are in counseling and things are not going well. I am not going to go into details here; this isn't the forum for it (I actually have started another blog about this touchy subject) but suffice it to say, I ain't having any sex these days and actually don't even miss it. Have you ever gone on an abstinence kick, self-induced or otherwise, and found you really didn't miss it?

This fact actually surprises me. Between my lovers and my hubby, I'd say I get more sex than most people. We have had a VERY active sex life. Like bunny rabbits. So, we've gone without sex now for over 2 weeks, and it would've been longer had I known he was still lying to me about some things he shouldn't have been lying about. He's in the dog house for sure, and he ain't getting no pussy for awhile. He needs to be punished and that's what I'm doing --punishing him. He's not even sleeping in our bed right now. I should get a whip and whip his ass till it's black and blue. Make him cry out he'll never cheat on me again. Maybe then I'll be ready to forgive him and get back together.

--Sigh--